The last several months have been tough for me. I completely lost sight of who I was, what my purpose in life was...felt like I was in a battle with my own self. This week, I did something I have never done before...I went to the beach by myself...crappy weather...but I spent 24 hours completely alone. And it gave me time to clear my head. I think as a mom, it's hard to balance your family, your obligations, and still have room to fit yourself in there. And I see now how important taking care of ME is...if mama's not happy, no one's happy! :) I don't know if it's true for all women, but I know I add unnecessary stress on myself...ALOT of unnecessary stress! :)
I look at social media, and see women who seem to have it all together, who have had more than one kid, and still look like a swimsuit model in their family beach pics...and I'm over here looking through 150 pictures of the same pose, just trying to find one that doesn't make me feel ugly. I have situations that I go through, and I lay in bed and stress out over how I can change someone, or change how they treat me...even though that's not my job. Instead of teaching my kids responsibility and give them chores, I carry the load by myself, then stress because I can't get it done. I go, go, go when sometimes it's ok to just say no.
I realize there are going to be tough times, things that absolutely break you. Times that it doesn't matter how hard you try, or how much of yourself you give, there are times it will never be enough. And that's ok...it's okay to fall down seven times, as long as you get back up eight.
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